Lord,
As You already know, I am an emotional, physical and (most damaging) spiritual wreck! I am at the end of me and mere men, for both have let me down so far that I fear I may never get up again!
I have been in such a spiritual battle for the past 3 years of my life and to be honest I have not been seizing the victory that Christ already won for me. I'm saddened and sorry, Jesus. I let the circumstances of my life put a big huge gaping hole between me (my temporal circumstances) and the truth of my Savior and what He did for me (my eternal circumstances). Also, I am trying to learn that this is not about what He didn't do to others for hurting me, we have all hurt someone, but rather where and who do I go to for the healing, nurturing and comfort I so desperately need!
I have no doubt that Jesus, my truest closest friend, sees, knows and even orchestrated the events of my life in the past 3 years (reasons not yet understood) and He would agree that they have been some pretty hard losses and burdens to bear. My problem has been in not just thinking I am alone through this, but in also conducting myself as if I am alone, indeed. But, I am not alone! And, how lonely that must make Him feel to be there the entire time with arms wide open waiting for me to run to Him instead of running further and further away from Him!
Jesus, I am in awe of how You love me... it is not a love that always makes me more comfortable here on earth, but it is a love that already knew exactly how and when I would need it.
Thank You for loving me through my yucky dark stuff, but of course, that's who You are and what You do! Keep drawing my heart back to You, Lord, for that is where I truly belong.
I love You Jesus, because You first loved me and did MANY things to prove that love. ~
Praying is talking to God with your heart
Open your heart and let Him in.