God, You Have Plans Of Purpose For Me!

Dear Lord, 

I want to give You my cares, the things that weigh me down and take my eyes off of You. I want to be the woman of God You want me to be. And, I want to realize Your words of promise, "For I know the plans I have for you...", I keep trying to figure out the plan and I know that is not what You want me to do and that is not trusting You completely. I often feel like I'm running out of time and only You know my Lord, maybe I am, but at my age I definitely want to see Your plans come to be in me. I know You have a plan of purpose for me and I'm going to hold onto that when those feelings of insignificance start to haunt me! With Your help Jesus, I will not make my age an issue as there are many times You used people for Your purpose who were older and wiser and I can do whatever You purpose me to do. 

      How nice that last paragraph seems as I read it again, but really sometimes I have given into feelings and they do sadly seem to be those feelings of insignificance and not enough of just feeling Your peace. Jesus, I think You  would prefer that if I am giving into feelings then I should let it be Your peace and joy that consumes my emotions. 

     I want to keep these posts uplifting and inspiring but the truth is that just isn't always the way it is and I need to remain honest. I will because I think it's important (for me), try to keep them of an edifying, godly and positive nature. They will by no means be anything dark or disturbing, after all...they will be conversations with God The Father, Jesus The Son and The Powerful Holy Spirit! 

    I pondered things like, will these posts be an exchange between me and God in a written format? Or, will they be my thoughts expressed to Him and me simply sharing what I feel He spoke back to me? I realized that I may be overthinking the whole thing and that it most likely will be expressed in a few different formats- and that's okay. 

     I'm going to be led by the Holy Spirit and learn to listen to the still, small voice of God. 

     Thank You Father, for having wonderful plans of purpose for me. 

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