...Woo Me Back, Jesus...

I remember times past when I have slipped away from Your grace and directed my hurts as hate against You,  but You didn't stop loving me. No, You wooed me back to You again. That's the kindness of Your mercy...it loves my hate away. You know me so well...You  know I need that mercy again.

Psalm 40:12 Amp, "For innumerable evils have compassed me about; my iniquities have taken such hold on me that I am not able to look up. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart has failed me and forsaken me."

Now that I have let myself be distracted by this world, the hurts of this life, the broken dreams and promises that never came to be and the lies of the enemy, I am ready to let my heart get back to where and Who it belongs to. My heart has drifted without direction and purpose for long enough.
I'm sorry Lord, I don't mean to sound or seem so flippant when speaking of slipping away from the safety of Your love, Your salvation, Your guidance, Your mercy, Your friendship, Your beautiful plan for me; especially, because I'm finding it's not so easy just to get back to where I want and need to be. I am asking You please, "Withhold not Your tender mercy from me, O Lord; let Your loving- kindness and Your truth continually preserve me!" I have remembered that Your words, Your truth, will preserve me when troubles have taken such a hold on me that I am unable to look up. I don't want these hurts and disappointments to rule and reign in my heart. I want Your words of truth and freedom to be what my heart gets smitten with.
I remember the times that I shared (willingly) everything with You, now I am finding it hard to even talk to You each day before it starts- oh, how I hate even saying that, but, You know it's true. It doesn't mean I don't talk to You, I am just finding different ways to do that-- I have already gone too long being angry and not talking to You, Lord.

I don't really mean to be selfish; what I really want is to be so filled with You that I can't possibly stay contained to just me-- that the You in me must be spilling out to others. Search the deepest parts of my heart Lord and show me the areas where that is not true. Show me how You and I will move truth into those lies of my heart.

Thank You Jesus for wooing me back to You, pease don't stop...it's working!

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