“Unsure”

Believe it or not being unsure about a particular part of God's plan does not necessarily mean you are in doubt about the perfectness of His plan. So with that in mind we can give ourselves some grace when it comes to trusting God's plan.

After all, Adonai tells us in His word that His ways are not our ways! He also tells us that He remembers the frailty of our humanness ((Psalm103: 14-16). He wants to guide us through a life that has eternal importance even here on earth. Yes our lives matter while we are here on this earth, but what we do should also have  eternal and godly kingdom purpose as well. Any life lived without Jesus as the center has no real or lasting purpose. 

His word also tells us many other things that ensure us that His plan, His ways, and His hope for us is good, it's always good!

Just look at all the things God knows about you and it will be easier to trust that He knows exactly what you need. 

Because He is the One who created you, He knows everything about you. He knows you have hopes, dreams and plans. He is the the One who put them in your heart and He is the One who knows how to bring it all to reality in your life.

And, the best part is that when we let God's plan rule and reign in our lives it is good, it's always good! 

                                                                        

                                           

Unsure

Believe it or not being unsure about a particular part of God's plan does not necessarily mean you are in doubt about the perfectness of His plan. So with that in mind we can give ourselves some grace when it comes to trusting God's plan.

After all, Adonai tells us in His word that His ways are not our ways! “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not my ways,” says Adonai. “As high as the sky is above the earth are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭55:8-9‬ ‭CJB‬‬). His thoughts and plans for us are so high above our own that they are perfect and we can trust Him. And, His plans for us were created even before we were, so they are pretty solid plans. “For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.” (‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭2:10‬ ‭NKJV‬‬). They are set and recorded in the annals of eternity. Wow!

If we are still struggling we can go to God’s word and there we can find the comforting help we seek.

Are you familiar with the beautiful words from Jeremiah 29:11?,  “For I know what plans I have in mind for you,’ says Adonai,‘plans for well-being, not for bad things; so that you can have hope and a future.” (‭‭Jeremiah ‭29:11‬ ‭CJB‬‬). What a beautiful promise from God!

He also tells us that He remembers the frailty of our humanness ((Psalm103: 14-16). He knows that our lives spent here on earth are short and we are like a vapor - here one minute and gone the next. He wants to abide in us and guide us through a life that has eternal importance even here on earth, but He knows we cannot do it without Him. 

We weren't meant to do it without Him and when we try we are left frustrated and unfulfilled - He doesn't want that for us.

A life lived without Jesus and His plans really has very little earthly meaning and no real lasting purpose and it is so fleeting that most of us spend the first part of our lives making the mistakes we’re going to regret in the last season of our lives. That doesn’t seem like a meaningful life to me. I want to live the life God meant for me to live. What about you?

Yes, we’re always going to be unsure about some things God has planned out for us, but we can trust Him even when we are unsure and not always see that as doubting Him.

 His word also tells us many other things that ensure us that His plan, His ways, and His hope for us is good, it's always good!

Read, meditate and take to heart the truth in the scriptures listed below and all the things God knows about you and all His word speaks over you and it will be easier to trust that He knows exactly what you need. After all, He is the One who designed and created you and no one knows you better than He does. 

“For you fashioned my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I thank you because I am awesomely made, wonderfully; your works are wonders — I know this very well.”

‭‭(Psalm 139:13-14‬ ‭CJB‬‬).

Because He is the One who created you, He knows everything about you. He knows you have hopes, dreams and plans. He is the the One who put them in your heart and He is the One who knows how to bring it all to reality in your life.

And, the best part is that when we let God's plan rule and reign in our lives it is good, it's always good! 

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I'm Really Getting To Know You

This post is an extension of the last post because I wrote it and then I lived it...with You, Lord. 

Thank You for being with me today, You showed me in the most amazing way just how true every single thing I wrote about in my last post is.

 I had to have an interview over the phone and it was a very long and frankly boring interview- it was an hour and a half just holding to speak to someone! Once I was actually connected to speak with someone the young man interviewing me kept putting me on hold and it was several long periods of being put on hold. I would start to get frustrated and irritable to the point I was even jotting down notes about getting the representative's name so I could report him if we got disconnected while he was putting me on hold. But, I kept just feeling Your peace -- there were brief moments of frustration over the wait, but I just kept finding myself in peace. In Your peace...the peace that the world doesn't know. The peace that kept me calm. The peace that said, I never leave you, but if I am with you while you wait, and by the way, I am-- then let's enjoy the wait together. I want you to see every opportunity to engage with Me. I want to get acquainted with you in, just as you said yourself (Sarah), "the seemingly insignificant areas in life". 

Your peace not only calms me, but it stirs me at the same time. Only You can draw my heart toward You while in the middle of the most ordinary and uninteresting of daily duties. As I felt You tugging on my heart strings, it felt like You were saying, These idle moments don't have to be so, they can be a chance to get to know Me and our relationship with each other can grow and you can learn more about just how very close to you I actually am. We can interact with each other and we can fill our moments with powerful thoughts and prophetic visions of your amazing destiny in Me. 

I'd Like To Get To Know You

Getting to know my Savior more deeply while seeking Him during (seemingly) everyday surface stuff is one of my desires for this coming season...

“Yes, ...I count everything as loss compared to the possession of the priceless privilege (the overwhelming preciousness, the surpassing worth, and supreme advantage) of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord and of progressively becoming more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him [of perceiving and recognizing and understanding Him more fully and clearly]... And that I may [actually] be found and known as in Him, not having any [self-acheived] righteousness..."

(Philippians 3:8,9 AMPC). The more recent (AMP) version says it like this in verse 10, "...That I may know Him [experientially, becoming more thoroughly acquainted with Him, understanding the remarkable wonders of His person more completely]..." 

I particularly love the way the scripture speaks of getting to know Him more deeply and intimately and that nothing compares to Him and coming to understand the wonders of His person. It speaks of having a supreme advantage when you know Him! Wow, when you have an advantage, that's a great thing, but when you have a supreme advantage that goes beyond boring or humdrum. 

I love falling in love with You all over again, Jesus.
I love falling in love with You in the small things, in the places where monotonous and mundane live and excitement and enchantment rarely abide. I love discovering that You actually do want to come into the seemingly insignificant areas of my life, that You want to walk with me through the boring necessaries of my day to day. I believe You want me to see how amazing my daily routine can actually be when I become aware and stay in the awareness of Your longing and desire to always be there with me. And, You are perfectly content to walk the day to day because it is me You are walking with; that is just how much You actually enjoy me and my company. You want to show me that You're already waiting for me on the other side of tedious tasks and at the same time, in Your amazing omnipresence You haven't left my side. You're walking with me through it all- big, small and everything in between; showing me and growing me for Your mighty purposes. 

There is something so exciting about knowing that when I ask You to help me get through something uninteresting or maybe even unpleasant and You show up for me in a really
big way or maybe in a very small way with big implications- it teaches me that joy can be today, right now. I can experience the living God personally and if I'm truly engaging with Him all through my day then He can and will make the mundane majestic! 

Just imagine...the God of all creation orchestrating the events of my day in such a way that brings me good and Him glory; even if the task at hand is less than exciting, there is meaning in everything I do and I love that this verse in 1 Corinthians 10:31(NLT) affirms that, "So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." You're right there with me, showing me how to bring You glory. Even when what I'm doing has no earthly glory or appeal to it, I need to remember that the glory shines its brilliance in heaven where it belongs...with You, Jesus.  ~

 

God's Love Changes People

Father God, 
I'm amazed by You, I stand in awe of You! Your power is beyond my comprehension, but still I see it work right before my eyes, and I know it full well, right inside of my own heart. 
Your love is so full in my life, the evidence of You is spilling out everywhere.
 Only You hold and then give the power which brings about change and only Your love sees it to completion.
For You promise that once we know You and abide in You that we will become new
 (2 Corinthians 5:17). 
 I am changing, for my (true, not perceived) good, which always brings You glory. No one can truly know You on a continual and intimate basis without a change taking place deep inside of them. I want to want the change You bring, please help me to see that change means that I'm growing, or at least, it should mean that. That is why I have said before, "Lord, because Your heart never does...mine must forever change". You bring about change by loving me...as You guide by Your light, inspire by Your Spirit, correct and even chastise me, You do it by pricking me with Your love. Your word tells me that You always know what's best for me and You will never cause me any harm (Jeremiah 29:11). And, Your love had plans for me before I ever came to be. What a great love that is...to make and intend for those plans to be eternal, for them to matter in God's kingdom forever. 
 I know You saw (it come to be) and meant a great purpose for my life before the foundations of time and I long to fulfill that Kingdom purpose You put in me. My desire is to shine Your glory as I continue this journey into my destiny, my destiny in You. 
May I be ever changing by Your amazing love. 

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How Did This Happen?

This post was started a few days ago and I've had some better days since then, but I decided to post it anyway because this blog is about talks with God - good, bad or otherwise!

It's 4:40 in the morning, I can't sleep, again! I'm sitting here asking myself how did I get so far away from God and His goodness? How did this happen?

God, I'm in spiritual trouble!
I don't even know what to say, what to pray or what to do!
I feel lost and lonely.
I have managed to alienate most of my family and loved ones so, these days, being in a room full of people is just about the loneliest thing I encounter. I have no church home so any spiritual growth comes from TBN and trying to read God's word at home in my room (alone).
My heart is sinking God, surely there's more to Your plan for me than this!? I literally cannot stand who or where I am right now, and I need help!
Help me, Abba...

So much of my struggle is with this physical pain and sickness and I have no idea how to get the help I need other than what I'm already doing and it is slow, painful and so far no success- at least where any significant relief from the pain is concerned. And then, the worst part is the struggle with the spiritual pain.
It seems as though I have been on the front lines of this spiritual battle for a very long time (3yrs) now and I can't keep going on like this!
Father, please help Your daughter, I am so weary and I need Your rest.


* 1Thessalonians 5:24 Amp. "Faithful is He Who is calling you [to Himself] and utterly trustworthy, and He will also do it [fulfill His call by hallowing and keeping you]."
Oh, I desperately want to cling to these words of truth! I will desperately cling to theses words, they are hope for my heart.

I made the mistake of putting too much of my trust, hope and future into people, the system, a program, the church, a doctor etc.. These are all good, but not where total trust is given or even expected. Jesus has shown me that only He holds total trust, to give it and receive it. Just like the verse says, faithful and utterly trustworthy are You! It is I who keeps forgetting that.

When I say that I feel lost and lonely, I hear You telling me Lord, that You felt that way too as You carried Your cross to the place where You would die for my lost and lonely soul. You never leave me, You always abide in me, so if I am lost and lonely then it can only mean that I am not abiding in You. That is a very sobering truth!
I feel the Holy Spirit reminding me that, yes, God can and does come down and touch thousands of people all at once, but He also can and does come down and touch one lonely and hurting heart of one of His precious daughter's. So whether I am in a room full of people and still so lonely it hurts or whether I am in a room all alone - I have Him,  ALWAYS!

I know God, that You have not ever left me, no, not once! It is I, who has abandoned You!
And, I now know, that is exactly how this slipping away from You and Your goodness did happen!

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God, You Have Plans Of Purpose For Me!

Dear Lord, 

I want to give You my cares, the things that weigh me down and take my eyes off of You. I want to be the woman of God You want me to be. And, I want to realize Your words of promise, "For I know the plans I have for you...", I keep trying to figure out the plan and I know that is not what You want me to do and that is not trusting You completely. I often feel like I'm running out of time and only You know my Lord, maybe I am, but at my age I definitely want to see Your plans come to be in me. I know You have a plan of purpose for me and I'm going to hold onto that when those feelings of insignificance start to haunt me! With Your help Jesus, I will not make my age an issue as there are many times You used people for Your purpose who were older and wiser and I can do whatever You purpose me to do. 

      How nice that last paragraph seems as I read it again, but really sometimes I have given into feelings and they do sadly seem to be those feelings of insignificance and not enough of just feeling Your peace. Jesus, I think You  would prefer that if I am giving into feelings then I should let it be Your peace and joy that consumes my emotions. 

     I want to keep these posts uplifting and inspiring but the truth is that just isn't always the way it is and I need to remain honest. I will because I think it's important (for me), try to keep them of an edifying, godly and positive nature. They will by no means be anything dark or disturbing, after all...they will be conversations with God The Father, Jesus The Son and The Powerful Holy Spirit! 

    I pondered things like, will these posts be an exchange between me and God in a written format? Or, will they be my thoughts expressed to Him and me simply sharing what I feel He spoke back to me? I realized that I may be overthinking the whole thing and that it most likely will be expressed in a few different formats- and that's okay. 

     I'm going to be led by the Holy Spirit and learn to listen to the still, small voice of God. 

     Thank You Father, for having wonderful plans of purpose for me. 

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